I know that is terrible to say, especially considering how blessed we are to even be pregnant. However, I am to that "miserable point" that all pregnant women talk about at some point in time. I am swollen...VERY SWOLLEN...all the time. My feet are retaining so much water that if you poke them, they will hold the shape of your finger. They are so swollen that I can't wear my own shoes :( I have to wear Rusty's shoes! I haven't been able to wear my wedding rings for months now and my face is even swollen. We were worried that being so swollen meant that I had high blood pressure- but luckily my blood pressure is fine. On top of the swolleness, my complexion SUCKS. My skin thinks it is 15 years old again- which is ironic since I have always had clear skin. I have gained a whopping 50lbs (and counting) and my body is having a hard time adjusting. My joints ache and my tail bone hurts constantly. The bathroom is my new best friend...I see "The John" about every 30 minutes or so. Since both babies are breech, I have four little feet dancing on my bladder at all times. Even though it is annoying having to go to the potty all the time, the dance recitals on my bladder are sweet reminders of the two miracles growing inside of me :) I LOVE feeling them move!
On top of all of this, Braxton Hicks contractions are now a daily occurrence. In fact, they are an hourly occurrence. And as we saw Wednesday at the doctor, they were occurring EVERY 2 MINUTES! This scared both my doctor and myself. Luckily, I am not dilating and the contractions are not painful- just uncomfortable. However, having ANY kind of contractions that close together is never a good thing. I am on strict orders to rest, stay out of the heat, and to drink A LOT of water.
More on my doctors appointment from Wednesday- Hadley Kate weighs about 3lbs9oz. Ava James weighs about 2lbs14oz. Dr. Dupre said their difference in weight isn't an issue since it is less than 20%. After all, they are two completely different individuals! It could just mean that Ava James is more petite than Hadley. They will continue to monitor their weights and if they get to be too drastically different, then they will intervene and possible induce labor early. If Hadley starts to get A LOT bigger than Ava James, that could just mean that she is getting more nutrients than Ava James.
So that's the latest! Please pray that the Braxton Hicks subside (luckily they have subsided some in the past day) and that I can carry these two baby girls for as long possible. Also pray that mentally I can continue to carry both little girls for as long as possible. Being uncomfortable is one thing, but not being able to do anything for myself (like clean, organize the nursery, wash clothes, plant flowers out front, etc.) is very frustrating. No matter how miserable, uncomfortable, or frustrating this pregnancy may become, I want Hadley Kate and Ava James to be healthy babies. I would rather suffer through another 32 weeks of pregnancy than have them come early and stay in the NICU. With each day that passes, I am more and more aware of God's amazing gift of life. These two baby girls are gifts, and Rusty and I are forever thankful.
Sorry for my pity party- sometimes it feels good to just vent :)
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